Icing on the Cake: Carson Alan Robbins

*Editor's Note: This blog post was actually written on Friday, July 16, 2010*

First off, let me apologize for my absence this past few weeks, I have been super busy. Me, busy? Imagine that, right!? Busy is the story of my life, especially lately, but I must say, for the most part I enjoy being busy. When it comes to my personal life anyways, I’m not too thrilled about being super busy with work all the time, but that has only been part of my business lately. I’ll back up to the end of June since that is where I left off.

June turned out exactly the way I predicted, fabulous! Like I mentioned in my first June post, I was determined to make June a good month and most of you reading this know that when I really want something, I usually do anything to make it happen. I can honestly say that the month of June was the beginning of something really good, not sure how else to explain it other than saying that I became a little more positive than I usually am. I think because I had a pretty rough April/May, June seemed like the first time in a while that I was genuinely happy. I mean don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t depressed or anything, I was just sad/worried about my abuelo and felt guilty for not being in Kansas City. But I slowly put a smile back on my face and had a great first month of summer.

Now let me tell you the best part of June, it was the very last day of the month, June 30. My nephew Carson Alan Robbins was born at 11:39am! He weighed in at 6 lbs, 8 oz. And measured 19 inches long. My sister Kim called me on Tuesday night, June 29 to tell me that Carson was going to make his debut a little bit early and to my surprise, Kim informed me that she was going to the hospital that very night and would have him the following day. I couldn’t believe it. Her due date wasn’t supposed to be until July 9 and I had already planned a trip home for the following week to spend time with her and my new nephew. I was a little sad because I was hoping that if anything, she would have him late so I could be there for it, but at the same time I was ecstatic. Just the thought of her having her first child and me becoming an aunt for the third time made me smile from ear to ear. Yes I wish I could have been there, but I realized that this wasn’t about me so I quickly got over being sad. The guilt I felt, however, that I couldn’t get over. I know that Kim wasn’t mad at me for not being there as she is and always has been super understanding, but I know she was disappointed and for me disappointing someone is worse than upsetting them. It was this feeling of guilt combined with my utter excitement to see Kim & Michael and meet my new baby nephew that led me to book another trip home. Waiting almost 3 weeks to visit KC just wasn’t an option so I booked a short weekend trip home to spend time with Baby Carson and spend the 4th of July with my family.

My flight didn’t get into Kansas City until 10:30pm on a Friday night, but I just couldn’t wait to meet Carson and see Kim so I went straight to their house. When I arrived Carson was up eating and I didn’t waste a second before I held him. Holding his tiny little self in my arms was such an amazing feeling. He is absolute perfection. I sat there and stared at him for what seemed like forever and at that moment I knew my life had changed forever. Isn’t that insane? I mean I have felt that way 3 times now and it’s SO true that my life really has changed with each new niece and nephew that has arrived. I can’t even imagine how I will feel when I have my own kids considering I feel so impacted at the birth of my sisters’ kids. Needless to say, I absolutely love being an Aunt. It’s the best job in the world and I feel truly blessed to have such wonderful sisters who married such wonderful men who helped make such beautiful babies! I spent the rest of the weekend spending time with Kim and Baby Carson as well as Andrea, George, Jaxson and Audrina. I did of course spend time with my parents too, but I was mostly occupied with my niece and nephews (love the “s” that makes it plural). Those 3 kiddos put a smile on my face like no one else can!

A little tribute to my sister Kim:

Kim and Michael are both amazing people who deserve nothing but the best in life and I couldn’t be happier for them at this point in their lives. They have wanted to have a child for some time now and after a little bit of difficulty, they were able to bring an amazing little boy into this world. My sister Andrea said it better than I (The Elmers), but one thing is for sure, Carson will never ever doubt the love his parents have for him.

Kim, you are an unbelievable woman. I still can’t believe you had a baby naturally without any drugs! I am so lucky to have such a great role model, sister, and friend in my life. I am sorry I wasn’t there the minute baby Carson arrived, but know that I don’t physically have to be present to be an important part of your or his life. Aunt Wesa is ALWAYS here no matter what! I love you!

Carson Alan Robbins was definitely the icing on the cake to a wonderful month!